I keep forgetting that Margot Robbie is Australian

 I'm going to jump off a cliff.

I don't know who's sick joke it was to give me COVID on the second day of the new year but it's not funny!!! I was literally writing in my diary about how I have nothing eventful to say and how this year already felt boring, and look where it got me. Manifestation is so fake and I hate it so much. 

I feel like having COVID in 2020-2022 was kind of iconic since it was still a big deal, but in 2023? 2023 was supposed to be my year of growth and prospering but if there is a God that exists then they probably hate me. Plus I'm not even missing school, instead I'm spending the last week of my break stuck in my room.  Karma is NOT my boyfriend, karma is NOT a God and karma is NOT the breeze in my hair on the weekend. I hate you Taylor Swift. 

After mindlessly scrolling on Tik Tok for hours I came across a Tik Tok of this really loud girl speaking about the 'lucky girl syndrome'. Basically it is this mindset that focuses on believing that everything that happens to you is for a positive reason. So if something goes wrong in your life, have the attitude that everything is going to work itself out. It's basically the law of assumption. So let's say I get COVID on the second day of the new year, maybe it was for a reason and maybe it was for the better. I call bullshit but I'm going to try to keep up the mindset anyway. 

I will say I do think that I peaked in elementary school with the luckiness. My mom used to use the words 狗屎运 (gou shi yun) (I have no idea whether the chinese characters are right or not, I'm going by pinyin) which essentially means "dog shit winner" or something like that. It basically means that if there was dog shit on the sidewalk, I would be lucky and not step in it despite not looking. This phrase would usually be used during family game night since I always won, but I think it was just my mom not wanting to acknowledge that I'm just that good at Game of Life. 

I recently followed Deuxmoi because I got extra bored and so I spent the entire morning in my bed and looking at their instagram stories. As entertaining as it is, it really made me think about the lack of privacy that celebrities have (also no shit they don't have any privacy what am I even saying). Like if I was a celebrity (one of my goals of 2023) I would be so screwed because you would catch me doing the stupidest things ever. I feel like celebrities used to be so idolized because they seemed like untouchable beings that only exist on the screen or something but now with the rise of social media they just feel like really famous influencers. PLUS people who are famous on social media (I don't like calling them influencers) are also being invited to important events like the Met Gala which really takes the exclusivity out of the event. That being said if I was an influencer (which I am, I literally got everyone to start bringing rolly backpacks to school in the sixth grade) I would definitely go to the Met Gala or the Oscars or any event if I had the chance. 

I don't even know what this blog is even about anymore, everything just ends up being word vomit. Anyways I have to go take my temperature to make sure I'm not dying (fingers crossed). XOXO!