Don't take IBDP

I've been stuck in a time loop for three years. 


I feel like the IB system has taken a part of my soul. Like once you sign up to be a part of the International Baccalaureate then you can't escape, you're just going to be scarred forever. A part of me blames my hatred for the IB on the fact that quarantine took a lot of time and energy away from me and I was never given that time back, and it's easy to blame my lack of achievements on something. I was never a NOT gifted student at my old school, so why am I so mediocre here. Another part of me blames it on when I was dropped into the program, but then again, why are the people who have started later than me already better? What do they have that I don't?


Anyways, I'M BACK! Even though I know that the only people reading these blog posts are my friends and/or strangers online (and if you kind of know me and you're reading this... you're weird let's be actual friends dude) I still thank everyone for the support and stuff. 10 views! Truly amazing. No sarcasm intended.


I seem to always have inspiration when I'm sick. Maybe I should just be sick all the time, then I can make a big dent in the world and have people notice me (hopefully the avengers will end up visiting me). But also my digital footprint is kind of lame so maybe I don't want people to notice me. The only thing I wish for is that the college admissions people don't see this blog and realize I can't write for shit. I'm practicing positive affirmations guys.


I'm not sure if I had already mentioned this (because I can't look back at my blog posts, I get secondhand embarrassment), but my school had recently lifted the mask mandate. This meant that during the school day, we wouldn't have to wear masks if we didn't want to which was a really nice change of pace at first UNTIL the colds began.


Imagine me, sitting in the middle of the classroom during a test and hearing a COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH. From the man who WASN'T WEARING A MASK. Look, do what you wanna do right I'm all about freedom but sir please think of the children? This is also a little bit hypocritical of me because I came to school for a history test and was hacking up a storm but like masks were required plus my coughs sounded kind of better okay no lie no lie. 


I'm not a germaphobe okay, I just appreciate it when people actually respect others' boundaries and don't go to school when they're sick. That being said I'm also contradicting myself by having a parent that thinks I should go to school even if I'm about to pass out in bed with a cold but whatever.


Have you guys read Drive Your Plow Over the Bones of the Dead? Don't. I'm like the main character: my values and beliefs are all over the place and I've also brought a dead boar to the police station- sue me.


So now I'm sick.


And because I'm sick, I might just post a little bit more if you'd like. Actually, your opinion doesn't matter. Love you!





Hi Amelie Grace.


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  1. AnonymousMarch 2, 2023 at 10:17 PM

    I think what makes people feel bad about the DP is that is too big of a jump from early highschool material. The only way you will even partially thrive (and I say that very liberally) is if you have been conditioned since popping out of your mothers womb to be good at school, which is unfortunately the culture we live in. I also just think it is harder here. All my friends in DP in other schools don't think it's too bad. But they're also American so their HL's are probably "Bigotry 101"

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    1. beckyMarch 2, 2023 at 10:20 PM

      I mean this from the bottom of my heart this is literally my favorite comment ever

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